Reversing A Mistake
15th June. How long I have awaited ye...
Today at approximately 15.40 I left the University of Malta for the last time. The university, colloquially known as 'the biggest mistake of my life', sucked life out of me one last time as I sat for an exam (which was supposed to finish at 16.30). However, I do not look at this as an accomplishment. It is merely, as the title implies, a reversal of a horrible mistake I made on 1st October 2008 (and the months preceding it) when, against my better judgement, I enrolled in and attended the university of Malta. Unfortunately, I cannot recover the time which was taken away from me (although to be fair, technically I threw it away by applying), but I can make up for the time I have lost.
I didn't leave the university empty-handed, of course. I acquired a very important piece of information I will carry around with me forever. This is :- I am ALWAYS right. Hmm...I already knew this, it's more of a confirmation. I have to remember in everything that I do from now on, that I am, without fail, never wrong when it comes to the things that matter. I should also remember that if ever I doubt myself...I shouldn't. I am right from the start. THANK GOODNESS that my mistake came when I applied for university. It could have been a lot more serious such as getting married or having children later on. At least now I know that anything I disapprove of is bad.
What I'm trying to say is...I'm always right. Did I say that already? Just wanted to stress that point in case someone wasn't sure I meant it.
Now it's time for real life to resume. I would like to apologise to myself for all the pain I put myself through over the past year. I promise it won't happen again...I'll always listen to my initial beliefs and never question me. I hope I can forgive me.
Oh wouldn't it be wonderful if I could wake up tomorrow to find that it is 1st October 2008 and live the past nine months over again. With one crucial difference, of course...when the alarm wakes me up for the first meeting at university (which, I might add, was postponed and half of us were not informed), I switch it off, wake up and go on with my day. That means I never go to university and all the misery I've been through never would have happened. Hopefully I could retain my memories so that I remember WHY I didn't go...but if I lose them - fine, as long as I never step foot in that place.
Oh, the possibilities. My hair would be long again. This blog would only have 42 posts (including this blogpost, I have blogged 61 times since 2006). Downside is that I would lose my driver's licence (however, if I retain my memories, it should be easy for me to get it back). Any new people I met would have no idea who I am. Yes, sacrifices will have to be made. But the benefits are infinite, starting and ending with my happiness. Perhaps the biggest sacrifice would be loss of muscles and strength the past nine months of training gave me.
Bright side is my watch (which was destroyed a few weeks ago) would be in perfect condition again.
And now, we come to the part of the blog where I address you, dear reader. I hope my mistake serves as enlightenment for you. Don't ever do anything you don't want to do. Don't second-guess yourself, your initial instincts are usually right. Take the risks you need to take to accomplish your dream. Ignore the world and work on your own agenda (N.B. without causing harm to anyone or anything). Don't take the 'easy way out'...going to university or college or anything because you feel you have no other option is bullshit. By all means, if that's where you want to be...that's where you should be. But don't do it because you feel you have to.
In short - do what you want. What YOU REALLY want. And another thing...don't misinterpret coincidence or error for fate and destiny. Getting a C in Physics when you were supposed to fail or get an E is not a sign that you're meant to go to university. It's just a sign that the Maltese educational system is flawed and some phony corrector screwed up. Don't let someone else's mistake ruin your life.
I'm sure there are other things I'd like to say, but you'll have to excuse me...as I don't think I can bring myself to write them right now. You see, I have a lot of catching up to do...nine months worth. I have to live again. I'll start by erasing the past nine months from my life and start afresh. Pretend it never happened. Pretend that on 1st October 2008 I hit my head and entered a coma, out of which I have only just recovered. The possibilities are endless.
Here's hoping when I wake up tomorrow it's October 1st, 2008.
Darryl, from Malta - Online
Today at approximately 15.40 I left the University of Malta for the last time. The university, colloquially known as 'the biggest mistake of my life', sucked life out of me one last time as I sat for an exam (which was supposed to finish at 16.30). However, I do not look at this as an accomplishment. It is merely, as the title implies, a reversal of a horrible mistake I made on 1st October 2008 (and the months preceding it) when, against my better judgement, I enrolled in and attended the university of Malta. Unfortunately, I cannot recover the time which was taken away from me (although to be fair, technically I threw it away by applying), but I can make up for the time I have lost.
I didn't leave the university empty-handed, of course. I acquired a very important piece of information I will carry around with me forever. This is :- I am ALWAYS right. Hmm...I already knew this, it's more of a confirmation. I have to remember in everything that I do from now on, that I am, without fail, never wrong when it comes to the things that matter. I should also remember that if ever I doubt myself...I shouldn't. I am right from the start. THANK GOODNESS that my mistake came when I applied for university. It could have been a lot more serious such as getting married or having children later on. At least now I know that anything I disapprove of is bad.
What I'm trying to say is...I'm always right. Did I say that already? Just wanted to stress that point in case someone wasn't sure I meant it.
Now it's time for real life to resume. I would like to apologise to myself for all the pain I put myself through over the past year. I promise it won't happen again...I'll always listen to my initial beliefs and never question me. I hope I can forgive me.
Oh wouldn't it be wonderful if I could wake up tomorrow to find that it is 1st October 2008 and live the past nine months over again. With one crucial difference, of course...when the alarm wakes me up for the first meeting at university (which, I might add, was postponed and half of us were not informed), I switch it off, wake up and go on with my day. That means I never go to university and all the misery I've been through never would have happened. Hopefully I could retain my memories so that I remember WHY I didn't go...but if I lose them - fine, as long as I never step foot in that place.
Oh, the possibilities. My hair would be long again. This blog would only have 42 posts (including this blogpost, I have blogged 61 times since 2006). Downside is that I would lose my driver's licence (however, if I retain my memories, it should be easy for me to get it back). Any new people I met would have no idea who I am. Yes, sacrifices will have to be made. But the benefits are infinite, starting and ending with my happiness. Perhaps the biggest sacrifice would be loss of muscles and strength the past nine months of training gave me.
Bright side is my watch (which was destroyed a few weeks ago) would be in perfect condition again.
And now, we come to the part of the blog where I address you, dear reader. I hope my mistake serves as enlightenment for you. Don't ever do anything you don't want to do. Don't second-guess yourself, your initial instincts are usually right. Take the risks you need to take to accomplish your dream. Ignore the world and work on your own agenda (N.B. without causing harm to anyone or anything). Don't take the 'easy way out'...going to university or college or anything because you feel you have no other option is bullshit. By all means, if that's where you want to be...that's where you should be. But don't do it because you feel you have to.
In short - do what you want. What YOU REALLY want. And another thing...don't misinterpret coincidence or error for fate and destiny. Getting a C in Physics when you were supposed to fail or get an E is not a sign that you're meant to go to university. It's just a sign that the Maltese educational system is flawed and some phony corrector screwed up. Don't let someone else's mistake ruin your life.
I'm sure there are other things I'd like to say, but you'll have to excuse me...as I don't think I can bring myself to write them right now. You see, I have a lot of catching up to do...nine months worth. I have to live again. I'll start by erasing the past nine months from my life and start afresh. Pretend it never happened. Pretend that on 1st October 2008 I hit my head and entered a coma, out of which I have only just recovered. The possibilities are endless.
Here's hoping when I wake up tomorrow it's October 1st, 2008.
Darryl, from Malta - Online
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